There was once a boy
That I thought that’d I marry
He was brutal
And raw
Like the men that I carried
Handsome too
In his own sort of way
I thought he’d be mine
At the end of the day
Fatalism
Believing fate is inevitable
I do believe it to be true
If then
What happened to me and you?
How was I so sure
And you so blind
To see
The hurt that I buried
I’d like to reach out
And make sure you know
That you’ve always been
First on my show
In my mind
Playing each day
You wisp by like the winter rain
I try and hush you away
Yet there you remain
Forbidden whisper
A lion to tame
I’m not ashamed anymore
To say it was you
Or scared
Of how this might look
Years have passed
Yet the feeling remains
Hope your new girl makes you happy
I guess
Maybe you’ll marry her
In a big white dress
For when I see you
I choke up inside
I can no longer pretend to hide
Thought you were my person
Ask anyone
I was 100% sure
Except every time you are alone
You fill the void with someone new
No space really for me to intrude
So maybe I left
And for that I’m sorry
But you filled each gap
So quickly
Without worry
That maybe I’d be waiting
At the end of the silence
No you didn’t
You just grabbed onto life rafts
So off we float
There’s no ending to my story
Maybe I’ll find
Someone else to marry